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Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.comBlogger203125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-91760539896289419942021-02-01T13:41:00.000-08:002021-02-01T13:41:07.226-08:00Practice Practice Practice.....the Art Of Living In Stillness<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-13915809227401404562018-03-13T12:49:00.000-07:002018-03-13T12:49:36.154-07:00Mother and Daughter 2017 Vacation in Huntington Beach<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-66158546618207136072017-06-25T09:05:00.000-07:002017-07-01T10:30:21.579-07:00Dance Is A Journey<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
100 Degrees today so up early to walk the San Francisco hills. Ran into my "role model" . She walks 9 to 10 miles every morning then home to lift weights and stretches. She said it is hard because she owns a retail business in the Pearl District.<br />
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Okay...I am a basic slob compared to her. Do not compare yourself to anyone. Ugh...so hard!!!!<br />
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Passion to return to ballet class returned this morning. Will I or won't I renew my commitment?<br />
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In the NOW I am breathing, smiling, setting egg timer for every hour to walk around the block. Today added stretching into my morning routine. Pavlovas personal lover has been my ballet classes for the past 25 to 30 years. Have I broken up with ballet?<br />
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Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-68495602137268135492017-04-28T12:24:00.000-07:002017-04-28T12:25:02.946-07:00Let's Hack The Code<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Are you prepared to live forever? Or maybe to 180? The Methuselah Foundation offers a One Million Dollar Palo Alto Longevity prize to encourage an all out effort to hack the code that regulates our health and life span.<br />
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Me, the athlete in training/dancer is still going on my healthy daily Swing Dance Walks up the S. F. Hills and applying for work and collecting unemployment until July. After 25 years conducting outbound calls to major corporations nationwide to recruit participants for research studies...I am OVER IT!!! It was FUN but...that journey has ended. Now I am only interested in work fielding inbound calls and listed with online job sites with the title.....Receptionist.<br />
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The other day I heard the billionaire Mark Cuban in an interview say...."if you have a people oriented type job you are going to be replaced by ROBOTICS." He was asked to give an example of what kinds of jobs that will be and the first one out of his mouth was...RECEPTIONIST.<br />
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I'm not sure about the quest to prevent aging. We are part of nature and different species age fast or slow yet everything ages. When we prevent the laws of nature how does that work out for us? I have heard when man uses technology to change the elements in the forest, or mess with the spawning of salmon bad things can and do happen.<br />
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I'm not sure I want to live long enough that no matter who I call for no matter what reason I will reach a ROBOT. Can you imagine a life where you make a call and punch in all the required numbers on the phone tree only to end up with a ROBOT at the end? I can't. I can't. That would ruin any chance I had for a healthy lifestyle. My quest for longevity ends there.🏃🏃🏃</div>
Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-67142849419602459472017-03-23T13:46:00.002-07:002017-03-23T13:48:09.792-07:00Women Who Dare<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Facebook asks...what's on your mind? How about...nothing. My Athlete In Training Program includes quiet time mentally where my mind clears a space for love. This focus on mental health takes discipline and usually happens when there is a disruption in life. Losing my job is that for me right now and allows me to discover...what is new...when I STOP DOING!!! Learning how to adapt when circumstances change is not only building my muscles physically but mentally. The need for tolerance for uncertainty has got to be fun for me or it's not worth it. <br />
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My quiet time brings silence. Knowing silence is guidance my job is to not panic when that is all I hear. "Hello darkness my old friend...I've come to speak with you again". Women who dare do not conform. They listen to their own songs. It takes strength to listen on a deep level. This simple concept to just STOP...the stories....the doing...and just be quiet is not something we are taught to be productive. We constantly ask and are being asked..."What did you do today'? If the answer is...NOTHING...the response is...What's wrong?<br />
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Growing up I never wanted an Ordinary Life. I did want to be the lady on the daring trapeze. To be born, raised, live, and die in one town would be the worst. Then at the age of sixteen...my ten year old sister drown. That is when I discovered what the worst really felt like. A movie came out called "Ordinary People" and I saw the story of my life on the big screen. Great novels, songs, and films let us know...we are not alone.<br />
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This AIT walks the S.F. Hills every day, applies for work online, goes grocery shopping, journals, reads, watches the evening news and some favorite YouTube channels all with a "quiet passive mind" in order to hear... what is new? Turns out my "ordinary life" is challenging me to dare to give up unnecessary things and business affairs...whatever that means? <br />
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Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-9436698034965091982017-03-10T12:46:00.001-08:002017-03-10T13:00:53.687-08:00Are You Normal<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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They say..."It's not normal to be Russell Westbrook". Slogans say, "Be true to yourself", that's fine but...better is one who can SHOW the way. One of Westbrooks Mountain Dew commercials "Don't do THEY...Do YOU...is worth a thousand words.<br />
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Myself an Athlete In Training I sit here in front of my picture window and watch joggers, dog walkers, bikers, employees at Johns Landing Watertower, all with places to go and things to do. Unemployed I have no where to be nothing to do just Free To Be Me. I have my Vanilla Carmel cup of coffee, dressed in my Walmart pajama bottoms, with $4.99 wool tights underneath, a camisole with a long sleeve worn out thermal and a white hoodie over top ready to go walk the San Francisco Hills. Wondering....is this what I am supposed to be doing? After 25 years of working everyday...is this normal????<br />
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There she is again. She walks past my window every morning and every night. She has no idea she is my role model. With her beautiful, elegant long-legged gazelle like movements for the past ten years I have seen her. Once I asked her if she walked the S.F. Hills? She said..."yes sometimes three times." I walk the hills one time and consider it my complete full-body aerobic exercise for the day. She walks in every kind of weather just like the postal service only they get paid for it. I asked her once how she can be so consistent? She said..."I love ALL the elements." That is my new mantra. Is that normal?<br />
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Marlo Thomas had an album called Free To Be You And Me my sweet, precious five year old daughter listened to daily. She had a major trauma happen in her life losing not only her two big brothers but her father as well due to divorce. No one else at her grade school had divorced parents. She asked..."why" she was different? Divorce and blended families were not normal at that time. The message of that song forty years ago is more relevant today than ever. With "Rump" for a so-called President freedom means having to "fit in". I heard just yesterday on the radio a mayor of a town say to a woman wearing a hijab..."Act normal or GET OUT".<br />
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I woke this morning thinking I need to be an ACTIVIST for diversity. But I can't be in throngs of people. I could be the one up on the platform yelling into the microphone but I need to have a name like Meryl or Rosie for that. Are you aware everyone is just automatically being asked to "fit in"? Every retail outlet, corporation, restaurants, movie theaters, airlines, need you to be a member of theirs now. I understand I pay double for everything in life now because I refuse to join anything. I am not part of any organization religious or otherwise, no for profit or non profit organizations, and wonder..."is it normal to be a member of everything and everyplace you go in life now?<br />
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I do not want to be a member of your marketing schemes. I do not want to even be asked if I want to join your group think mentality. But that is feeling almost impossible now... to be Free To Be Me economically. I am paying the price. Is anyone else paying attention to this? Have you already joined hands? Is America First really going to be our "new normal"? I hope not.<br />
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Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-61032748944315522232017-03-01T18:55:00.000-08:002017-03-01T19:08:30.969-08:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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What does a long-legged bird in the CUCKOO family have to do with me? How many kinds of crazy can set me off in the Land Of The Unemployed? Lets start with....If Need Help call 877-345-3484. The only way I was able to stay on hold for an hour to register for my UE check and not go MAD was pretend I was the star of a SNL skit and getting paid big dollars. The recording is old and dragging with distorted loud grating music and a voice overlay repeating the same info adnauseum directing you to their website. Many companies have those instructions never realizing their website does not have the answer to your question. Beyond FRUSTRATING!!!!!<br />
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How did I get here? January 2017 my job moved to our Las Cruces location. I felt like a contestant on Project Runway. "One day you're IN and the next day a Giant Road Runner takes your job. OK....get a grip and check in with one of my mentors Caroline Myss..."when change happens it's like entering a mystery. GET EXCITED!!!"<br />
Hey, I can do that. I have an affinity with living in the unknown preferring how much more interesting it is than a daily 8 to 5 grind. That is until time to pay the rent.<br />
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My job now is to focus on my own progress. Being UE is a process. So how am I doing?<br />
Relax your face, relax your hands, and your whole body relaxes I tell myself. A yoga axiom that works for all occasions. Except that "Donny one-note" reading a prompter last night drones on in my head as obnoxious as being stuck holding on the UE help line .</div>
Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-65501241393261896912017-02-20T16:41:00.000-08:002017-02-22T10:18:30.095-08:00Who You Idolize Is The Direction Your Headed<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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What is the meaning of my life? What were my passions growing up? The Greatest Show On Earth is the one movie I watched over and over and just knew I had to find a way to join the circus. My parents said.... NO circus people are different than you.<br />
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My favorite activity in grade school was recess. The only thing I looked forward to was going outside to play daredevil on the monkey bars. In High School my most hated activity was Physical Education in the gym doing calisthenics and my most fave was roller skating.<br />
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Marriage and family time found me signing up for Volleyball team in winter and Softball league in summer at City Parks and Rec. College led me to dance. Injury and unemployment brings me to NOW. Walking the SF Hills every morning.<br />
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I hear women on YouTube wanting to find a life partner. No thank you. I just want to meet any one who wants to go to the park to play Frisbee and badminton while I figure out what else I was created to do for work to support myself. <br />
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If you want to see a most fun and even more poignant documentary look for "Alive and Kicking". It is filled with a million different life lessons in just 88 minutes. You can Google the movie trailer to get the idea and if you get a chance to see the film you may feel like a little bit of magic dust sprinkled on you that you will carry with you wherever you go.<br />
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Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-31613136205940165552017-02-11T19:13:00.002-08:002017-02-11T19:23:54.880-08:00For Self Healing Start Here<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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I believe my purpose in life is to teach. I played the role of teacher as long as I can remember. In third grade my parents set up a tent in my back yard so I could invite all of the neighbor children over and I was the teacher. Too young to have a subject to teach the kids came because I gave out grape juice and graham crackers. But only to those who behaved. My mom told me the parents would call to say their child would not be coming back because...I was too bossy!!!</div>
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My favorite cousin also loved to play school so every time we got together we had imaginary students we spent hours teaching. I never wanted to be a traditional teacher so did not go down that path. When pursuing my degree in college I did find myself designing and implementing Hatha Yoga classes for adults and teaching Creative Dance for Children and would have continued if I could have figured out a way to support myself doing it. Had to move on.</div>
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For the past 25 years I have been happy as a student of classical ballet. My last class was in April of 2016 because of injury. I found myself having to be my own teacher. . I used Ester Gokhale's book and healed in 8 months ready to go back to the barre. Now comes the ultimate challenge. My brand new lifestyle in the land of the unemployment. Having to find work to support myself suddenly those 3 little words are meaningful. I want to post it everywhere. Maybe I will even wear it? No......too far</div>
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Being my own teacher is much harder than teaching others. Learning to be The Warrior archetype to: get tough...be decisive... keep the personal out of it... a brand new concept for me. I have always made all decisions based on how I "feel" about the situation. A new attitude is needed now.</div>
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I am learning all of life is Impersonal. We just make it personal Caroline Myss says. Over the years through counseling and personal studies I know how to catch myself when telling stories in my mind that make me feel hurt and I am able to say.....STOP IT!!!! </div>
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What is new is advice to myself to get out of the way and make objective choices. In order to make a change for Self Healing Meir Schneider writes.....Whatever you were doing...do the opposite. START THERE!!!! It sounds simplistic but it is what I did to heal my hip injury. No matter if it is an injury or illness or any kind of change I will choose to observe every feeling... thought,... and action... from an IMPERSONAL perspective..not judging it as good...or bad....and move forward from there. JUST DO IT. Ms. Bossy!!!</div>
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Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-73505466130552124892017-02-03T12:30:00.000-08:002017-02-03T12:30:02.290-08:00Where Is My Inspiration<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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My daughter is my number one INSPIRATION!!! Every night she will text me a workout she is doing. "Just ran the hill now doing the P90X ab ripper". But she also remembers in High School when she would make fun of me every morning when she would hear me working out to the Jane Fonda cassette tape. She even remembers some of the songs. <br />
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It is so icy and cold here. Just when I think I have established my new AITP with a one hour walk up the San Francisco Hills in my neighbor hood......oh nooooooo....its too windy and cold for me. I do my 15 minute HasFit weights routine and yoga balance poses and call it DONE.<br />
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I do not lack for inspiration though. This woman walks by my apartment EVERY MORNING AND EVERY NIGHT for the past ten years at least. Once I had a chance to tell her how much I admired her consistency.<br />
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"I don't think of it that way" she said "I just love it"<br />
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I said, "but you walk in wind, rain, hail, ice, and snow, weather I don't even like to drive"<br />
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"I just love all the elements" she said as she walked away.<br />
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She has no idea she is my role model.<br />
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Emailing my resume this week to various health and wellness clinics felt less like job hunting and more like fishing. I never liked to fish but I did love being with my Dad. He taught me fishing requires patience. I had none. He never knew he was my role model in the Art of Waiting.<br />
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Okay...Game Plan for next week.....<br />
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* Pay attention to who and what I admire because that is where I am being led<br />
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* Walk the SF Hills everyday<br />
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* Keep fishing for work<br />
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* Ask myself......"ARE YOU LISTENING?<br />
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Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-82581079114448873912017-01-27T12:49:00.002-08:002017-01-29T09:53:18.359-08:00All I Want To Do Is Dance<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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My nickname is Pavlova. My first time ballet class ever was in my late 40's. I had no idea how to stand at the barre or what foot to use. Life had brought me to begin to study ballet...no idea why. My friends named me Pavlova because I was always in class. With every injury I had they would say...Are you sure you should be taking so many classes? And...what do you ever hope to accomplish going to all those classes? To this day in my 7th decade the answer is....I have no idea.<br />
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My day job allowed me the extra money to spend on classes and the challenge studying ballet fit my body/mind/spirit perfectly. Life happens and eight months ago I had a hip injury that took me away from the barre and not even able to take a step without pain. I had no idea if or when I would be able to go back to class until a few weeks ago and wah lah.....Healed and ready to go the first week of 2017.<br />
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Now unemployed for the first time in 25 years I find myself resisting what has presented itself. Martha Graham said...we are all athletes. Whatever we spend the most time doing is our athletic endeavor. In my 7th decade I never thought I would be looking for work to support myself instead of dancing. My Athlete In Training Program now has to include looking for work? UGH!!! I find myself resisting every step.<br />
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This Monday morning I awoke with anxiety attacks. I had to go to WorkSource to register for unemployment benefits. I know all of the self-help steps to take when overcome with fear. Did not matter. I had to go through the process. Diarrhea, feeling physically weak and disoriented, negative stories dominating my mind telling me I should NOT HAVE TO DO THIS!!!<br />
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Okay...get a grip.....gave myself an Athlete In Training pep talk. Realizing challenges come to us in many different forms. And they are not supposed to be easy. Just Do It...the same message I have given myself a zillion times in ballet class I had to use now.<br />
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At the State of Oregon offices it was not pretty. Many people needing help and one man saying he had been there three hours already. The agent that finally called my name and took me through the steps of enrollment said...I don't have to ask you if you speak good English because I already know...you were not very happy when I came to get you. I said...its a good thing it does not ask for...good or bad attitude because you would have checked...bad. <br />
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At the end of the 2 hour process to register she told me she thought we were close personal friends because of all the information she had to ask me. I stood up and said....thank you so much ......and asked her name as I put my hand out to shake hands. She stood up and said......NO. Then she grabbed me and gave me the biggest bear hug ever, <br />
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I was so happy every step to my car felt like I was DANCING ON AIR. Lesson learned....resistance can lead to love when you let it happen. And the dance of life comes in many different forms...not just at the barre. </div>
Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-39240873656114775052017-01-20T18:07:00.000-08:002017-01-20T18:32:58.594-08:00Growing Pains<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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I am an INFP (Idealist) according to Myers Briggs test. In order to evolve into a whole balanced personality I need to work on my opposite traits ESTJ (Guardians). Was it by chance when I graduated from Marylhurst University to start my own business my boyfriend at the time was an ESTJ? I am great at preparing to take risks and try new things yet want to wait for an ideal time to proceed. He was the one that insisted....DO IT NOW!!! And showed me the way. The best is to have friends along the way that can SHOW you instead of TELL you what to do. <br />
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Running my own business Creative Dance For Children for a few years I realized it was time to move on. Designing Body/Mind/Spirit workshops, teaching yoga classes, promoting fitness classes, being a student of ballet and working as a research analyst fit my personality better. <br />
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When a hip/back injury hit eight months ago my dance classes came to an end. Every little step I took was acute pain and going for a walk is an exercise I always took for granted. Now it was just to painful. I put together my own program to heal using Esther Gokhale's book....8 Steps to a Pain Free Back. I learned that in order to heal physically I had to do the OPPOSITE of what I normally do.<br />
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Last month with my injury healed I was looking to start 2017 back at the barre.. but BOOM. My job was no longer available and with no supplemental income even with my UE benefits I do not feel right going to ballet. My conditioning is to work then play. Is that true? My pattern is to shut down, close in, until work comes again. There is no growth when repeating patterns so...<br />
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Athlete in training.....what now? The opposite of what I normally do. Meet friends for lunch...get on Facebook... create space for inner guidance. Breathing breathng breathing. trust the process.<br />
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Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-60742228775060754252017-01-15T09:11:00.000-08:002017-01-15T09:11:35.574-08:00Athlete In Training Program Starting January 2017<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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This blog is about Women Who Dare...in their 7th, 8th, 9th and 10th decade of life. Please join me and share your stories, tips, about your journey to be yourself. That is the most daring thing we can do. I call myself an Athlete In Trainng. My nickname is Pavlova. I design and implement training sessions for myself and others. This is my NEW PROGRAM starting January 2017.<br />
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Friday January 13th after working for the same company for 25 years and in my 7th decade of life I hear....YOU'RE FIRED!!! That is what I heard. Reality is I have been laid off because my job is moving to Las Cruses, NM. I am now in the Land of the UE. <br />
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After a night of mini anxiety attacks with visions of NO $ signs dancing in my head I begin Saturday January 14th curled up in my blanket in front of my picture window like a cat....feeling the warmth of the sun on my face while seeing inches of of snow covering streets and sidewalks. I write down a quote in my journal to get myself moving...<br />
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"Now and then in this workaday world, things do happen in a delightful storybook fashion, and what a comfort that is."<br />
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I drink juice of 1/2 a lemon and fix my treat, a cup of Vanilla Carmel coffee.<br />
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Next comes my workout session a 15 minute weights routine at Hasfit.com and add some full body wake up yoga poses.<br />
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Then apply for UE online...text with family and friends...begin reading a new book "An Innocent Fashion" about following your dreams. This evening I will watch some of my favorite YT channels.<br />
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For now...in this moment I am still basking in the sun streaming through my window. "There is no such thing as an ordinary cat". <br />
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Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-13206662999809045202013-12-23T22:43:00.000-08:002013-12-23T22:43:07.662-08:00What Is Your 2014 Challenge?<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
It's the kind of night that feels still. It is 9:30PM. There is a haunting lone train whistle in the night but at the same time feels like the song, all is calm all is bright. People that write songs are amazing. People who write are amazing. I think writing must be like singing, drawing, all of the arts you either have a talent for it or you don't. Then again I have read and believe from personal experience that as Woody Allen says, there is a story in your head you want to tell and only 60 percent of it comes out.<br />
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I also heard someone say the other day that when she was chosen to go to an Artist's Retreat Colony for a year to write a book she had started as soon ss she got there the book she was going to write disappeared or turned to crap in her head so she called her agent and was told...."write it anyway". She said that was the greatest advice because if you keep tearing up and starting over you end up with nothing. Better to go with awful and stick with it then mine it for gold and as she said she ended up with a book she had written. It was not the book she wanted to write but it was a book and now she is writing another.<br />
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That is what ballet class feels like. Always missing the mark. Yes I feel progress but it is far short of what I think I could do would do will do next time. Only once in a great while do I leave ballet class with a sense of accomplishment. 9 time out or 10 I leave not feeling depressed just a feeling of thinking I could or should be doing so much better. Of course now I an not able to dance at all and I think it is going on 3 months. My hip is healing each day so we shall see if I get to return to the barre in 2014. <br />
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Tomorrow is Christmas Eve and I will walk the river early in the morning and again in the afternoon alone and the same on Christmas Day. This alone time will recharge my batteries to prepare for my family and trip to Las Vegas for New Years Eve. Me who is way out of my comfort zone around people celebrating the incoming New Year in Vegas baby will be a trip. This coming year my horoscope tells me the Cosmos has scheduled me to instigate some major creative activity in 2014. Instigating is not my strong point. But I AM UP FOR THE CHALLENGE!!!! I hope.<br />
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Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-14779760268918037032013-12-19T19:21:00.001-08:002013-12-19T22:19:38.549-08:00Best Gifts EVER!!!!!!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Here we go....a few days before Chritmas....wheee. Feel like I am on the upside of a roller coaster. A total surprise I get to see my daughter and grand children for Christmas.....and a trip to Las Vegas for New Years Eve. My life just turned into a whirlwind with one phone call. Me who stays home alone for the Holidays is really going to be taking a risk.....going out of my comfort zone for sure... to ring in the New Year 2014.<br />
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Yes I feel like I am already on the joy train and want to savor each moment. This moment NOW just being with the experience and not trying to shape it or form it into anything other than what it is.....PURE JOY!!!<br />
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Maybe I am being re-born.....shedding some skin and coming out of my cocoon free. where my normal habits and ways of doing things are being shaken up and my rigid discipline and strict ballet class mentality is taking a huge vacation. Maybe what I had planned for myself with 5 ballet classes a week with no excuses and sticking to the program no matter what has slowly turned into the opposite with no ballet classes. If I just stay out of the way and let things evolve I will be happy and LOVE w surrounds us in many ways. <br />
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I know what I did with my hip. Forced myself to class, tried to make adjustments and tried to ignore the pain. The healing process feels slow because I am not ignoring it. My mind focuses on it 24/7. Now is the time to allow change to happen and observe the beauty when I stay out of the way. Beauty Is when you are not. When only the energy and the perfume and the essence is the focus.<br />
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Tis the Season...this is where I live and what it looks like right now. The beauty of Mt. Hood is my gift everyday. <br />
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Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-18992376900968569032013-12-18T18:24:00.001-08:002013-12-18T18:24:50.484-08:00I Want To Be Like Kathy <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Today I was more relaxed when aware my thoughts went to exercise. This more peaceful place led me to my walk when I arrived home and follow through on my stretches. One of the ways to stay motivated is to ingrain and remember the feeling of how it feels when keeping commitments and following through on healthy choices. I am savoring this feeling.<br />
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A message from one of my best friends in my Inbox at work this morning. To follow our inner guidance, take risks, have the clarity to choose which risks to take...and follow the hero's path into the new year 2014. I am all about it!!!!<br />
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On my walk tonight it came to me that I may never find another exercise class to replace ballet class and that is okay. My exercise can always be a long walk and stretches that I enjoy instead of forcing myself to go to a gym or a yoga class that I am not in tune with just because it is an exercise class. I do not NEED a class I can be my own class and my own teacher. This opens me to learning what is NEW?? My Inner Guidance needs a clear playing field so old ideas, old rules, old wants needs to be left alone. When I hear...."you should...you have to.....you need to...." all can be listened to and then left alone. <br />
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Looking forward to comic relief tonight with a Kathy Griffin special. I want a friend like her or want to be funny like her. I took an Improv class once hoping I could learn to be funny and it was NOT FUN. I was terrible at improv. When I watch Kathy she makes it look so easy to find the funny in everything and I love her expressions. Then I think.....hey I can do that. YEAH RIGHT!!!<br />
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Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-34258093738489609742013-12-17T18:50:00.003-08:002013-12-17T18:50:48.865-08:00A Life With No Goal<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
What if I give up on everything my heart is not in? Ballet class is a discipline and you just show up. No excuses. The training is strict and the mind needs to be sharp. When I cannot go to class my mind turns to mush. I want to keep some kind of activity going and have no idea what to do.<br />
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I am cold. Physically and mentally so I need to stop writing nonsense. There is nothing to report. All is blank. I know how much pain people are suffering and do not see how they get the courage to go through it. I don't know anything. Living in that place of not knowing feels deadening but also liberating.<br />
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I'm cold, hungry and tired. Tonight with no exercise feels like I am losing a battle to stay healthy. What am I going to do about it? Eat a good dinner and smile, and just keep at it. Stay focused on what is in front of me even when I feel like I am losing ground. Can I let go of all goals and live my life from a place of not knowing anything? Not having a goal feels so scary. How can I live without one?<br />
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Twenty five years of dance and I may be moving on.....or not. I don't know.<br />
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Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-13726268118614875882013-12-16T19:23:00.001-08:002013-12-16T19:23:19.832-08:00Falling And Getting Up Again and Again<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Freezing cold after work today so no walk no stretches no exercise for this athlete. Maybe I am in transition to a different endeavor. Too many expectations when I label myself an athlete so I will let that go. I am my own personal trainer and coach. Who has ever heard being too cold an excuse for not exercising when one has a cozy apartment with a carpet to stretch out on?.<br />
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Martha Graham said, "we are all athletes in training. Whatever you spend MOST of your time doing is your athletic endeavor." Currently my endeavor is putting one foot in front of the other and that means doing a lot of what feels like absolutely nothing.<br />
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Monday night 5PM normally I would be heading to ballet class. Is there a normal? What do I mean by normal? When my routine gets changed I feel I am not normal. WHAT???Who wants to live their life in a routine anyway? I would be the last to raise my hand and yet when I cannot accomplish what I plan to do I feel like something is wrong and I need to fix it NOW! Life is so much more complicated so through all my lessons what have I learned? My response to change wavers back and forth between feeling angry and sad with sprinkles of relaxing and smiling knowing this too shall pass.<br />
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Derrick Rose an NBA athlete has not spoken for 17 days. One year he was the youngest player to be voted "MVP". Last year he had to take the whole season off to heal a torn knee. He just came back this year to play again only a few games then tore his other knee and is out for the rest of this year. He is 24 years old. His mother told him "inspiration comes in times of adversity". He shrugged his shoulders.<br />
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When I read this story today my heart went out to him. My prayer is he will find a way to heal and the courage that will take may help others along the way. <br />
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Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-33192949599921525352013-12-15T18:17:00.002-08:002013-12-15T18:22:49.611-08:00Getting Old Is So Easy<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Sunday walk on the river and stretches for my exercise. My hip is along way from ballet class. I repeated automatically today over and over....I need an exercise PROGRAM. Why are they so hard to find?? I was driving by the Naturopathic College and thought WHY do they not have physical fitness classes? Soooo maddening. Maybe if I get angry enough I will give up on exercise all together. I have been known to go to extremes and I am feeling so much like that right now.<br />
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I swear there is not one subject I am interested in taking. Nothing interests me in the slightest. Oh a free workshop on how to write? Could care less. Open enrollment at any Health Club in town after Christmas. NOT INTERESTED. Free yoga classes starting tomorrow in my neighborhood. I don't care!!!!!!<br />
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Getting old is about not leariing and not inspired to learn. Hey Me....I am getting old!!!!!<br />
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Downton Abbey is on TV tonight. I did not get on that train when everyone else did. I have only watched bits and pieces but I adore BRITISH TV. British everything really. It does seem to be the most refined drama on TV and I normally do not have time to watch. But tonight...I have all the time in the world to become a vegetable and just watch other people live their lives even if it is made for TV. Tonight is called a marathon of the past 3 episodes to lead up to the premier of the new shows in January. SERIOUSLY??? This is going to be my life? <br />
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Next I will be purchasing their line of jewelry at Macy's!!!!!!!! Please help me.<br />
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Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-66264848709524034452013-12-14T19:48:00.000-08:002013-12-14T19:48:04.681-08:00Mind Games And Exercise<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
A walk along the river this morning at 11AM then yoga stretches. My hip feeling on the mend until....tonight. An afternoon of shopping stressed my hip area and now feel like I may never be able to go to ballet class again or any exercise class.<br />
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Looked up classes at PCC tonight and they offer not one class I would have access to either because time of day or location. It is just nutso. Mind games are incessant. So what if I can never take another dance class? My mother had so many different interests. I wonder why I do not. I could name a million things I have no interest in learning how to do and only one that I want to learn and that is as good as over with for me. ONWARD!!!<br />
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Writing my thoughts down does not FEEL like it is helping a thing. Remind myself this is NOT an exercise about RESULTS it is about looking for patterns.<br />
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"You can't wait for inspiration you have to go after it with a club" ,,,Jack London<br />
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Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-80392092999396662192013-12-13T17:32:00.001-08:002013-12-13T20:44:29.804-08:00Are You Doing Somethng?<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
When I signed up for Financial Aide to attend college I had no idea I would go so far in debt. It just didn't matter to me. Money was not an object. I was a single parent and qualified for every loan available in the 80's and I had no worries about paying it back. My focus was on getting a BA and having fun learning.<br />
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Today not knowing where my life is heading an email at work this morning to sign up for a "Yoga Therapy Training Program". I printed out the application. The Course Fees were $3,000.00. If my heart was in it and I wanted to head in this direction I would fill out the application and not look back. The impetus is not there. I have taken yoga classes from this studio and the teachers did not grab me like Joan did. Maybe I am much wiser now and no teacher would be able to make such an impression upon me.<br />
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I want a training program. I want to train for something that is all encompassing. I wanted a job like that . I wanted my employment to be not only my livelihood but my reason for living. Where everyday I would be the one percent of the population whose career is their passion. That was my plan. I was able to let that go over the years and be happy in my work. Okay so not everyone can support themselves with their passion. Dance class was my savior. Something to challenge me. In order to get to class it became my lifestyle. I had to focus on my nutrition and keep myself prepared just to get to class each day<br />
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With each passing day my hip hurting and no ballet class I become more of a vegetable. Today after work I get groceries then ask my neighbor to fix my computer then wirte this blog as I watch Kobe have to watch his passion change radically. <br />
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Reading an article in Runners World said when she STOPPED eating, breathing, training and focusing on running running started to become more enjoyable again. WHAT???<br />
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Okay, like the memoirs I am reading of a thirty something that is a fashion writer in London and had money and access to fly all over the world going to every kind of art event and had all the clothes she wanted, the perfect apartment and social life but it was not enough. When her boyfriend left her she wanted a new life in rural France and now there she is wishing she was back in London. HELLO!!<br />
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There is this awareness within myself that we are all connected and the experiences we have are not unlike each other What once was is not anymore. Letting go and not trying to fix it is the worst because we are conditioned to try and make it better. When all the training all the conditioning fails us... What to do? Is it in the NOT DOING that leads us to a new place???<br />
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Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-89541548081277342542013-12-12T19:23:00.001-08:002013-12-12T19:23:14.045-08:00Heading Down The Runway Of Life<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Every intention to walk after work and then.....it started raining. So what? It was not windy only cold. Doing minimal exercises in my front room is like pretending to keep my muscles in shape but not even close to what ballet class requires. What to do? Keep questioning everything.<br />
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Tonight my inspiration will be watching another episode of Project Runway Stars. Having to be creative under pressure AND on National TV? Could I? I don't think so. I am in awe when I watch artists create no matter what their craft.<br />
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Self-Help books say pay attention to who and what you admire because that is the direction you are heading. REALLY??? I have to see it first. Right now I see a dark and rainy winter night, traffic heading in every direction, me sitting at my computer having no idea where I am heading.<br />
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When I least expect it the design will come to me and I will win the challenge.....or at least have fun watching those that do.<br />
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Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-47490479520061404682013-12-11T18:58:00.000-08:002013-12-11T18:58:10.599-08:00Our Teachers Stay With Us Forever<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Being a student for the past 25 years or more graduating from college, studying dance, yoga, Artist's Way, attending various workshops plus teaching various yoga classes and workshops for 20 years my journey has been mostly in a classroom of some kind. Now I am in the humongous classroom called LIFE 101 and it is soooo much harder. No teacher, no assignments, no combinations to learn, no set exercises or papers to write or reports to give or presentations to design and implement I feel LOST.<br />
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"Pain is the greatest teacher" she said. She asked us to sit down against the wall after class and announced she had breast cancer. I heard she had been a dancer since the age of three. She came to Marylhurst to teach dance after being in a severe car accident where she was told she would never walk again. In the hospital she asked for a radio and began moving her little finger to the music....the only thing she could move at the time. Three years later she was teaching my class. She had a double mastectomy yet died a year later. She was in her forties. She is the one who was my role model, inspired me to dance and to become a yoga teacher.<br />
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I've heard if you have even one great teacher in your life you are fortunate and I have had many. I had no idea I even wanted to take a dance class for my degree until my adviser suggested it. I hated the class so much because I felt so self-conscious and like the worst one in the class. Going across the floor one at a time freaked me out. But I got an A, did not have to read a book or make a report and adored Joan so I signed up again. That was the beginning of non stop dance classes of all kinds to today moving what I can move.<br />
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Joan Harmony, my mentor, my teacher, my inspiration, my catalyst to be more than I could dream.<br />
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Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-64437492801450239252013-12-10T22:14:00.001-08:002013-12-10T22:14:39.128-08:00Inspiration On The Street And On My Bulletin Board<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Home from work at 3PM went directly for my walk. I have to put myself on automatic pilot. The minute my mind gets going I start with ...its too cold, I do not have to do anything I don't feel like, I do not like walking in winter so wait until it gets a little warmer blah blah blah.....no wind so had to go for it. Wind is hard for me to ignore.<br />
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Aware it is helpful to my psyche to notice every person walking, or jogging on my drive home from work. They give me inspiration and I tell myself see....they can do it so can you. For months now my left hip hurts from over stressing in ballet class. Then for many weeks my right foot started hurting out of nowhere. Not enough to stop me from walking only annoying. I changed shoes immediately thinking that was the problem but weeks went by and still hurt. <br />
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Almost home from my walk today I realize my foot does not hurt. Just as I have no idea how it came about weeks ago I have no idea when it went away. But it is pain free now. I love when that happens. <br />
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Ohhh my body did not feel like stretching tonight after my walk so I did very few. I have been flexible all of my life. Given the name Gumby in ballet class and always asked to demonstrate the splits as my body naturally went there no problem until a few years ago. I stopped stretching on a regular bases when I stopped teaching yoga and I also had read for my body type to gain strength I needed to focus on less stretch and more strengthening exercises. Well what little I gained in strength I have lost big time in flexibility and where my muscles were extremely loose they now feel stiff and tight. I put this picture on my bulletin board many years ago for inspiration. I need it now.<br />
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Angele Stylehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00261830617734984463noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5335407220842726936.post-27703871930988106582013-12-09T17:40:00.001-08:002013-12-09T17:40:40.004-08:00Thought Processes At 29 degrees<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Whine whine whine....its too cold to exercise. Too cold to walk, too cold in my apartment to not be wrapped in a blanket, hey girl, this is the time you need to force yourself to go to a gym and workout or find a yoga class. But I did call around to find a class of some kind the past few weeks it just did not happen. I cannot find one. Reality is tonight it is only 5pm and I sit here at my computer holding my head in both hands with eyes closed so tired I can barely feel myself breathing...<br />
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Woke up this morning and wrote: It does not matter what we believe what matter is if we love.<br />
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Do we make our own choices or is life pre-destined? It just doesn't matter. Not going for my walk after work, not doing any exercise at all I find myself brain dead. Kobe talked today about being an athlete coming back from an injury like cutting down a tree one has to keep chopping and keep chopping, stay at it and stay focused internally on what you have to do. Nutrition is major and stretches.<br />
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What is lost nothing, feeling the air entering my nostrils and leaving....fingers wrapped around a cup of hot Vitamin C water, gratitude... aware of gratitude...mind is overwhelmed with blessings too numerous to mention. Being in a state of gratitude is pure grace. Do I bring that on myself or is it given to me as a gift?<br />
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