|Whoa Whoa Whoa...I am very late to this party|
I believe my purpose in life is to teach. I played the role of teacher as long as I can remember. In third grade my parents set up a tent in my back yard so I could invite all of the neighbor children over and I was the teacher. Too young to have a subject to teach the kids came because I gave out grape juice and graham crackers. But only to those who behaved. My mom told me the parents would call to say their child would not be coming back because...I was too bossy!!!
My favorite cousin also loved to play school so every time we got together we had imaginary students we spent hours teaching. I never wanted to be a traditional teacher so did not go down that path. When pursuing my degree in college I did find myself designing and implementing Hatha Yoga classes for adults and teaching Creative Dance for Children and would have continued if I could have figured out a way to support myself doing it. Had to move on.
For the past 25 years I have been happy as a student of classical ballet. My last class was in April of 2016 because of injury. I found myself having to be my own teacher. . I used Ester Gokhale's book and healed in 8 months ready to go back to the barre. Now comes the ultimate challenge. My brand new lifestyle in the land of the unemployment. Having to find work to support myself suddenly those 3 little words are meaningful. I want to post it everywhere. Maybe I will even wear it? No......too far
Being my own teacher is much harder than teaching others. Learning to be The Warrior archetype to: get tough...be decisive... keep the personal out of it... a brand new concept for me. I have always made all decisions based on how I "feel" about the situation. A new attitude is needed now.
I am learning all of life is Impersonal. We just make it personal Caroline Myss says. Over the years through counseling and personal studies I know how to catch myself when telling stories in my mind that make me feel hurt and I am able to say.....STOP IT!!!!
What is new is advice to myself to get out of the way and make objective choices. In order to make a change for Self Healing Meir Schneider writes.....Whatever you were doing...do the opposite. START THERE!!!! It sounds simplistic but it is what I did to heal my hip injury. No matter if it is an injury or illness or any kind of change I will choose to observe every feeling... thought,... and action... from an IMPERSONAL perspective..not judging it as good...or bad....and move forward from there. JUST DO IT. Ms. Bossy!!!