Afraid of snow decided not to go to ballet class and now I am sooooo bummed!!! And I was NOT going to let this happen. This time, this year, I was not going to let the weather forecast slow me down. I decided starting this week I was going to go to class 5 times a week no excuses.
The only thing I can muster to do tonight at home is 20 releves. The end. I feel like a loser. I have been here before a million times and what do I learn? I am aware to call myself names does not help, soften and surrender my mental story of what a loser I am. There is a part of myself that says if I pardon myself and accept my choice then I will do that ALL the time. Now I am aware that is just a story I tell myself and I can choose to buy into the story or let it go.
I just love ballet. It is the best form of exercise ever devised by man in my opinion. I just want to do it forever. Nothing else interests me. I think that is called an addiction.
The only thing I can muster to do tonight at home is 20 releves. The end. I feel like a loser. I have been here before a million times and what do I learn? I am aware to call myself names does not help, soften and surrender my mental story of what a loser I am. There is a part of myself that says if I pardon myself and accept my choice then I will do that ALL the time. Now I am aware that is just a story I tell myself and I can choose to buy into the story or let it go.
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